Aubrey and I took a long weekend trip to visit friends in Pennsylvania. Ryan and I had planned to go for the past two summers and just didn't make it. I felt that it would be good to get away and have a break before returning to "normal" life. We had a great time and we are both very tired from the 9 1/2 hour drive tonight. One of those hours, divided into 3 different 20 minute segments, consisted of Aubrey screaming in the back of the van that she wanted to get out and nothing I did could calm her down! I think she really wanted to be out of the carseat and in her own bed. She has been in bed for an hour and I haven't heard a peep from her. I'll post pictures and fun stuff about our trip tomorrow.
-A
Glad you were able to enjoy sometime with Aubrey. Traveling with a 2 year old is always fun! Thinking of you and praying for strength.
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ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear that you took some time off and headed to PA. Can't wait to see some pics. I was sorry to hear that Aubrey threw a little fit in the van for you. That is never fun. I think they are too little to realize that there is nothing that you can do for them when they just want out of their carseat and it makes you feel a bit helpless also!
~ Sigh ~ I hate to admit and I feel a bit selfish to say that it was hard for me to log back on to Ryan's blog. It just doesn't seem real and I think I am having a hard time facing the reality. I was telling my husband how I wished that we wouldv'e made more time and got together with all of our "FFA buddies" before it was Ryan's time to go. Life is so so short. I don't mean to bring you down. I am praying and praying for you and Aubrey and all of Ryan's friends and family. May God keep comforting you and giving you strength to help you through this very difficult time. It comforts me to know that God is hurting just as much as we all are. He didn't want this to happen, he never wants anything to cause hurt or grief, he only wants us to experience joy. But when we do have to endure hardships he is right here helping us through and promising us the eternal reward for having to go through such pain and suffering. I don't mean to sound like I'm preaching. I just wish there was more I could do for you.
I love, love, the idea you have of making a memory book for Aubrey of her daddy. I am having fun of thinking about all the memories I had of Ryan. It is just hard to think of which ones I should send to you!
Ryan will always be remembered and forever in our hearts. He was so blessed to have you and Aubrey and I'm sure you feel so lucky to have had him. I wish that it wouldn't have had to be cut so short.
I know I don't know you very well. But please know that if there is just anything I can do for you, don't be afraid to let me know. Sometimes it is easier to talk to a stranger. We aren't exactly strangers, but I just want you to know that we are here for you for whatever you may need. You and Aubrey will continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. We will be praying for you now and in the days and years ahead.
April, your faith is truly an inspiration. And your faith is what will get you through this difficult time. Thanks for continuing this blog for all of us to enjoy.
Love, hugs, and prayers are being sent for you and Aubrey!
May God Bless,
Alan, Vickie, Simon, Eli, and Henry Dirksen
PS ~ Here is my personal email address if you ever need something: avdirksen@omnicityusa.com
The one-hour, 3 segment screaming sounds identical to what happens to Gareth on that trip when he wakes up from his nap after only 30-45 minutes. He screams, and I think it's b/c he's still trapped in his seat and not in bed. And he also says things like, "Get out now!"
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